Things your mum will not tell you about Yong Ching Seng (Part 5)

Luke 14:27 (New King James Version)

"And whoever does not bear his cross and come after Me cannot be My disciple."

Third year

Third year was an eventful year. Before the start of first semester, I invited a friend of mine to attend Benny Hinn's crusade here at Singapore Indoor Stadium. God touched him mightily and he immediately decided to change from a "tidak-apa" (lukewarm) believer to a serious soldier of God. Eventually, he caught the vision of having a cell group in NTU for our community, and decided to fight this battle alongside with me. During that time, there were only 5 of us, including our good friend Adrian who was still happily dealing with his own agenda (please approach him for more details haha). Since this friend was so overwhelmed and excited for God. We joined FOC and led a group of freshmen together. Through our "legendary" lepak skills and lawak skills, we managed to know quite alot of new friends and invited about 50% of the total freshmen to enjoy the fun of "Festival of Praise" at Singapore Indoor Stadium before semester 1 commenced.

For the first semester, both of us did endless visitations and attended numerous "yumcha" sessions at "Ah Fang" to build relationship with friends. During this semester, the church service was only held at Expo so we were having tough challenges inviting not just the new friends, but fellow believers as well. Cell group was still far out from NTU (at Eunos) so only me and my friend were able to attend. Despite of all these hardships, both of us were still hungry for more.

After months of laboring, suddenly, at the end of first semester, there was a surprise: the church is going to have services at two locations (Expo and Jurong West) starting in December 2007, one church in two locations! Upon hearing this announcement during the service, my heart was pounding strong and I felt strongly a voice in my heart which tells me that it is time for the NTU cell group to come to past!

With this, I proposed to my leader (Joanne) to follow the church's direction and have one cell group in two location haha. Initially she was reluctant but after a while, she felt that this is the direction we should go and agreed with it. With this plan, she would lead cell group for twice a week in two locations (thursday and friday), and also attend service in two locations (saturday Expo, Sunday Jurong West). Her sacrifice was really amazing. With all these great news, I went overseas for a vacation joyfully.

Upon my return from the vacation trip, I got another surprise: this good friend of mine who had been fighting alongside with me as a good comrade, suddenly decided to move on to other direction in life. Now, I am left devastated to fight this battle alone.

However, God is always faithful. As I was going to give up, it was during this period of time that God continued to use Joanne to encourage me, besides, something happened and Adrian suddenly had a change in his attitude and behavior (for more details, please approach him again haha). So when second semester started, I continued the journey and Joanne recommended me to attend leader's meeting (yes, we need recommendation to attend leader's meeting, it took me few years in church to start attending it).

As I started attend leader's meeting. God gave me another surprise. Initially, our zone leader, Ian, was not so keen for our cell group to be in two locations. Then one night after the leader's meeting, he told me to stay and asked me "Ching Seng, I prayed and saw your face, I knew about this plan for the Malaysians in NTU, I was not keen but now, please tell me what can I do to make it happen?" I was too shocked and almost cried in joy when I heard this. I took this as another confirmation from God to proceed with this plan to set up a cell group in NTU starting from the Malaysians community.

After the confirmation from Ian, I went for an interview and started to attend "Home Cell Leadership Training" class which lasted for 13 weeks. It lasted throughout my second semester until exam season. It was a long and tiring training but a memorable one. By God's grace, I managed to complete my training and also managed my school work, eca, and ministries. I also managed to source out for a IO (10-week industrial orientation) company before going into final year.

For now, the cell group has around 7 to 8 people. As everything seems to work fine. I got hit by another trial again. With C+ as my best grade, I got the worst results of my entire study in NTU during third year second semester, although I was quite satisfied with my performance. To make things worse, I appealed two subjects and got rejected. With this kind of results, I started to doubt whether I am capable or fit to be a leader, and experienced some depression.

Then, I remembered the verse from Luke 14:25-33.

In order to be faithful disciple (not just mere believer), we have to carry the cross. Carrying the cross signifies self-denial. I have to deny my own pleasure, plans, comfort, feelings, talents, attitudes, finances, etc. By denying of ourselves, we are surrendering every part of our life to adjust according to God's plan, and not asking God to adjust His plan according to our life. His will be done, not ours!

With this, I surrendered to God and He brought me to a new level, preparing me for the final year of my study in NTU...

(To be continued)

Things your mum will not tell you about Yong Ching Seng (Part 4)

Finally, the time has arrived. I put up my courage, packed my luggage, ate my porridge and set off to Singapore, not knowing what awaits me in the next 4 years.


1 Corinthians 2:8-10 (New Living Translation):

" But the rulers of this world have not understood it; if they had, they would not have crucified our glorious Lord. That is what the Scriptures mean when they say,
“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.”
But it was to us that God revealed these things by his Spirit. For his Spirit searches out everything and shows us God’s deep secrets."

Indeed, God has brought me to a whole new level during the 4 years of my undergraduate study.

First year

During my first semester, I tell myself to "guai guai" study, score in exams and get a powerful certificate in the future. I had the minimum involvement with activities other than studies. After my lessons, I would just stay in my room. No birthday celebrations, no ah fang supper (I don't even know where is it until year 2), no visitation of friends, no outings. no RockBand gaming with Mike, no Sarah, etc.

Church wise, I reached Singapore few days before FOC, and I attended the church ever since. However, my definition of Christian lifestyle is very simple: Just go to church every Sunday, take down some notes, attend some Bible studies and maybe make some friends. I was still quite individualistic and did not involve in any cell group or other events. Christianity to me is just a Sunday event. What's the problem with my mindset here? Well that's another future topic haha.

After a while, thanks to the tiredless effort of my old friend En Yao, I got to know my first cell group W193 and joined them eventually. The cell leader is younger than me and I was the second oldest member. Slowly, I developed the concept about "spiritual family" and that no one is suppose to walk alone.

After 4 months attending church, God is indeed faithful, because the church has decided to shift the service to Expo, which is 1.5-hour travelling from NTU, meaning I need to travel 3 hours for church. Besides, W193 held the weekly meeting not at south spine seminar room, but at Tanah Merah, which speaks for another 3 hours two-way journey. This is definitely a big challenge for me to stay or to change church.

Why do I stay? It's because spiritual growth to me is a matter of life and death, and that the atmosphere in the church is condusive towards spiritual growth. So I stayed on, believing that God will see and honour the sacrifice I make just to attend church. It was during that time I came up with a statement to encourage myself:

"If I can't even travel the journey from NTU to Expo, what makes me think that I am fit to finish the journey from earth to Heaven?"

This became my mantra and commitment to church was definitely inconvenient and requires sacrifice during my first year.

Relationship wise? Initially I was quite eager, but slowly I knew that I was not ready, so just decided to forget about it and focus my attention unto my spiritual growth.


Second year

During the 3-month holiday after completing first year, the church held Emerge Conference 2006, it was a powerful youth conference.

During the conference, pastor Kong shared about the Cultural Mandate, which states that children of God should be the light and salt of the world, breaking the four walls of the church, and be a blessing to our surrounding by having positive influence which benefits generations to come. The message greatly inspired me and my concept of christian living was renewed.

Influence is best attained by becoming a leader. As a result, I decided to do something to my faith and I signed up as FOC group leader, so that I could be a blessing for the new generation of people who are going into NTU. This marks my greater involvement and also a burden for the NTUMSA community, and NTUAMCISA.

By now, W193 grew bigger and a new cell group E399 was born, I was allocated to E399. It is also during my second year that I began to take up more responsibilities in the church. I started to learn how to be a guitarist, and also assisting my cell group leader in anything that needed to be done. To a point of time, I could be involved in church-related activities for 5 days a week. (Monday prayer meeting, Wednesday Bible Study, Thursday cell group, Friday cell group, Saturday Expo service, Sunday Expo service). Sometimes, I attended two cell groups because I wanted to have more chance to learn the guitar. The greater involvement really stretched my limits, faith, emotional ceiling, financial stewardship, etc.

During my whole second year, I continued to develop greater hunger for God. Besides usual cell group, I also started to get involved with the NTU CHC community for activities such as prayer meetings, camp planning, etc. I got to know some friends of great faith and was inspired by their commitment towards Christ. It was this interaction with them that birth forth the desire in me to serve as a cell group leader. Be wise in choosing who will influence you, because it affects your destiny!

Well, my eyes still looking around for potential partner, but still remained single because wanted to grow more spiritually. I told myself that I must grow up before I can handle a relationship.


*To be continued*

The P's and Q's in The Kitchen

Of course, we don't go "Thank you" and "Please" so often in the kitchen, especially to the utensils and all, but our mood and character is often shaped in the kitchen and also often affects the outcome in the kitchen.

For example, have you ever wondered why some people just cannot cook at all, even though they followed recipes to the very last detail? Sometimes, it just attributes to lack of skills but most of the time, it boils down to two things: patience and common sense. A lack of patience often makes someone try to do shortcuts which may spoil the dish. If you were to keep on stirring a soup, the time it takes to boil would be longer. If you keep on opening the oven door while you're baking a cake, the cake will not rise at all. When you cream together butter and sugar but not until it is fluffy, then not only will the batter be not mixed properly, but the cake's lightness will be affected as well. If you add in eggs into the batter, all in one go instead of one yolk by one yolk, your cake batter will curdle. So you see, patience is truly a virtue and is much needed when you cook or bake. Of course, your mood also affects your dish as well. A rather complex concept, but it's true.

Common sense is simply gained through using your eyes, sense of taste and application. When you are in the kitchen, observe your mother as she cooks. You would notice a natural flow to her movements and cooking, then apply it. The best lesson is through observation. Your level of alertness will also be heightened in the kitchen. You can be amazed how you become more alert in other areas of life, simply by doing more housework. :P

When you eat something, do not simply shove it into your mouth. Take the time to taste the dish. Notice what you are eating! I know of a friend who cannot remember whether the dish was chicken or pork, or what is in the dish. When you taste, you will know what goes inside the dish and through time, you will understand which ingredient enhances the taste of your dish, and which dishes complement each other.

It's cool how simple lessons from the kitchen can be applied to our spiritual lives (no wonder my mother's prayer sanctuary is always in the kitchen, while she cuts and cooks). Patience is akin to obedient endurance. It is not easy to be patient in the kitchen, no matter how good a cook you are. Similarly, it is not easy to endure hardships. But I have learned that the more patient you are, the more you learn and the better your cooking. The more you learn to obey and endure, the more you learn and the more you become like Jesus.

Common sense is learnt through observation and application of things around us. But the key to it is the willlingness to learn and apply. Likewise, our spiritual sense is guided by the Holy Spirit but we have to be willing to listen to His voice. Unless we learn that, we would not be able to identify His voice. The next step then is to heed Him. This is one tough call, but thank God for Jesus who died on the cross for us, so that we can be more than conquerers in Him.

Next post: I'm gonna give a step-by-step on how to cook simple pasta with sauce!

To share something I learnt from CF bible study

Hi all, since I have a bit of time here, just wanna share with you what I have learnt.

There was this question in the bible study, says: Read 1 John 5:4
John's usage of the past participle tense, "has overcome" indicates both a past and a continuous action. What are the implications of this 'observation'?

1 John 5:4 For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world - our faith.

So let us just spend a few mins think about it....

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In the verse it says that it is our faith which has overcome the world - our faith in Jesus Christ.
So I share my point of view that Jesus overcame the world on the cross and as we have faith in Him, we will continuously overcome the world.

Then there was this CF part-time worker who joined in our discussion asked me. What did Jesus overcome?

So I answered, "Hmm.... death? The sins?"

Then he asked, "Is that all he overcame?"

Hmm, wellzz.... I was thinking, "I don't know..."

And he started sharing:
When Jesus started His ministry, the first thing that He declared was not that He will defeat the Satan, the death, the sin! In Matt 4:17, Jesus said," Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand." And to the Jews, when they were under the authority of Romans Empire, it meant that this person was declaring that there was another kingdom that was coming to replace Romans empire! And they would infer that Jesus, was declaring Himself to be the King of the kingdom.

In fact, we read in the bible that Jesus is referred as the King of kings, the Lord of Lords!

And His purpose of coming to this earth was to reconcile us, or rather, the world to God!

Let us look at what is the significant of the cross and why Jesus was sent to die on the cross.

During that time, there was capital punishment but being crucified on the cross had a greater impact. If a person were to be a murderer and be sentenced to death, his could just die with his head be chopped off but not dying on the cross. So what did dying on the cross mean? During that time only a certain group of people were sentenced to die on the cross. People, who in our current context, like terrorists, serial killers, serial rapists, those who create social unrest. So those who created social unrest to the Romans empire were crucified!

Then how was Jesus creating social unrest? At that time, there were a few people also claimed to be a new king, a Messiah, who was prophesied in the scripture, but why JESUS was to be crucified? This was because He offended the Pharisees greatly. Look at John 2:19, He told the Jews that He will destroy the temple and in three days, He will raise it up! This greatly offended the Pharisees, for the temple has its political, social and economic significance to the society. As a result, they decided to punish Jesus with the worst punishment.

Jesus did not choose to use His power and the help from God to make the Romans empire collapse but chose to die on the cross. So what is the message sent? During that time, the Jews thought that as long as they were the Jews, the God's people, they will be safe. And they thought some people like the Gentiles, the Samaritans, the tax collectors, the leprosies etc were sinful people. The Jews just did not like them, so they seperated themselves from those people. But when Jesus started His ministry, he had no problem associating with those "unworthy" people. Here is the wonderful message from His action: He came, not to seperate Himself from the world (like what the Jews had done), but to reconcile the world back to God!

So this is partly what Jesus overcame on the cross! Through His ministry and His work on the cross and what He commanded, He was asking us to reconcile the world back to God! So this is the continuous action that we as Christians should have: not to be a seperator from the world, even though we do not conform ourselves to the worldly views and norms, but to bring the world back to God before the second coming of the Lord, Jesus Christ!

Friends, maybe we can start thinking about how to bring the world back to God? Through being a blessing to everyone beside us? Through sharing to them the gospel? Through being someone, who are not like the 'worldly' people and whom these people will turn to, will trust in times of need?

Wow, I was and am marvelled by what the CF worker has shared... Hope you are blessed from this too!

Note: "worldly" people, in 1 John context, we can refer to 1 John 2:15-17.

"Be strong and courageous" *Translated*

Ljuan shared an interesting insights in his post “Be strong and courageous”, so it would be a waste if it is not translated for our English-speaking friends.

I am not good at translation, hope this helps:



[What I have written below is my personal opinion]

Recently after I read the book of Joshua, I feel like sharing some thoughts.

I always feel that we can link ourselves with the Israelites due to certain similarities we share. For example, we, as Malaysian Chinese, are just like them. We are considered as “second-class” citizen when our ancestors migrated from home country to settle down in Malaysia. In the book of Joshua, the Israelites departed Egypt to Jericho, this is just like us when we left Malaysia (temporarily) to Singapore.

I feel that God is using the book of Joshua to speak to me.

Consider this: what does God want to tell us before we come to Singapore? In the book of Joshua, God told Joshua: “Now then, you and all these people, get ready to cross the Jordan River into the land I am about to give to them” (Joshua 1:2), God is asking us to “get ready”. Now I understand why I am facing so many difficulties here, it is because I have not “get ready”, He wants to take me across Selat Tebrau (the straits between Singapore and Johor), but I am not ready.

“Be strong and courageous”. This phrase appears in the same chapter for 3 times. When there is repetition in the Bible, it means that God is really emphasizing those words. Take us for example, when we want to emphasize about certain information, we would normally apply a underline, bold, CAPITALIZE, or even ALL IN ONE. Maybe there were no such techniques available in ancient times, so repetition method is used.

Why does God keep telling us to “Be strong and courageous”? This is because as our Creator, He understands us the best. I do not know about you, but there are many times I am faithless and feel like a loser, I just want to give up and quit. When I read the phrase “Be strong and courageous”, it is like God is telling me ”Come on, you can do it.” He already knows my weaknesses and also how faithless will I become when the going gets tough, that’s why this verse is repeated to encourage me.

Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. (Joshua 1:9)

Running away is not an option. The way of a conqueror is to step out boldly and face the giants. If God is with us, who can be against us?

“Be strong and courageous”

-Ljuan-



That’s all folks, pardon my translation skill and hope you are blessed! Have a nice day! More postings please!

"Prosperous and successful"

Regardless of my broken English, this time, I’ll write in English.

Again, it’s my own insights and sharing. So, I may have written and interpreted it wrongly. Yet I want to write it down, because I feel that if it could encourage others, why not writing it down?

Prosperous and successful. Like every preacher, I would ask: Do you want to be prosperous and successful? Haha.. Obviously, today I’m going to share a few verses talking about prosperous and successful.

Now, before crossing the Jordan River, the LORD told Joshua: “Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.” (Joshua 1:6)

Do you still remember what did your parents tell you before coming to Singapore? (For those who did not understand my 1^st post, I refer the Jordan River as Selat Tebrau, meaning that Jericho is Singapore to us) I still remember what my parents told me. They told me a lot of things. They asked me to spend my money carefully, study well and other stuff.

God is also our father. Before Joshua led the Israelites to cross the river, what did God, as a father to Joshua, tell him? Imagine that the Israelites are now going to a new land. They will have a lot of worries. They are afraid that it will be as what happened few generations ago, that they will become slaves of another nation. God did not choose to be silent. God deliberately spoke to Joshua so that as a leader, Joshua would know what to do. God gave Joshua a promise.

God did not tell him: “Train the people so that they are able to win all the wars.” But God told Joshua, “Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you.” God is saying, “you obey me, and I will lead you to victory.” God is not trying to draw a border line for Joshua. God is also not trying to say, “Joshua, you must do this and do that, or else I’ll punish you.” Then why did God say so? Because God wants to ensure that Joshua will be successful. “you may be successful wherever you go.”

God was telling Joshua: “Be strong and courageous, son! I led you forefathers out of Egypt, and now I will lead you to the new land. I want you to be successful; therefore I’m telling you how to become successful!” Refer to the verses, first, God said, “Be careful to obey all the law…”, then “Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night…”, lastly “so that you may be careful to do everything written in it.”

If you carefully look at the verse, you will find that we can’t be monks, staying isolated at the high mount (hall 10) or at isolated places (hall 7), only to “meditate on it day and night” to fulfill what God tells us to do. We need to “meditate on it day and night” SO THAT we “may be careful to DO everything written in it.”

God wants us to do.

Do what? “everything written in it.”

What is “it”? “it” is the “Book of the Law”.

Why? Because God cares for you, and he wants you to “be prosperous and successful.”

Meditation helps you remember that God’s promises. Meditation helps you to set clear your path. “Meditation lets God speak to you.” We meditate because we want to remember what we should do.

Have you heard of people asking such question: “I literally obey all the laws; I turn neither to left nor right. I did not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; I meditate on it day and night; and I carefully do everything written in it; but why am I not prosperous and successful yet?” You may also hear a lot of comments from a lot of unbelievers saying that, “If the promise is true, then all the Christians are trillionaires; if not, then it is either the Bible is not true, or they are not true Christians.”

How are you going to counter all these questions? Let’s look at what Jesus said. “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.” (Matthew 6:19-20)

The main problem with them is that they misinterpret the words “prosperous and successful.” Often people will think that “prosperous and successful” must have something to do with power, money, and fame. God wants us to store our treasures in heaven. We may not live well on earth, and we may even suffer on earth, and yet we can still be “prosperous and successful,” because we understand no thieves can steal our treasure in heaven.

“For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” (Matthew 6:21)

-Ljuan-

“Be strong and courageous”

For a start, I would like to write in Chinese..

[以下写的，都是我自己的感想和看法]

最近在读Joshua，觉得有些东西想拿出来share一下。

我一直觉得我们可以很容易的明白当时的Israelites。我们，马来西亚的华人，就当时像在Egypt的Israelites。我们都是“次等公民”；我们的祖先都是从别的国家，然后在这里落地生根。然后，到了Joshua，他们离开了Egypt要进入Jericho，我们也[暂时地]离开马来西亚要进入新加坡。

我个人觉得，当我读Joshua时，神就好像正在跟我说话一样。

想一下，当我们就要来新加坡之前，神要跟我们说什么？在Joshua里，神对Joshua说：“Now then, you and all these people, get ready to cross the Jordan River into the land I am about to give to them” (Joshua 1:2) 神叫我们“get ready”。我才发现，我现在那么多的问题，就是当时还没来之前，没有“get ready”。祂说要带我过Selat Tebrau，可是我却还一直没准备好。

“Be strong and courageous”。这句话在同一个Chapter里就出现3次。我曾经听说过，当一段句子重复几遍，就代表他正在强调着那件事情。如果我们现在要强调一段句子，我们会怎么做？我会把那句子划线起来，或是把它Bold起来，或把全部写成CAPITAL LETTER。或更夸张的就是把全部ALL IN ONE。不过当时没有这样的科技，强调的东西就要以重复的方式来带出来。

为什么神要强调“Be strong and courageous”？我觉得神很了解我们。我们很多时候会觉得想要放弃，觉得很失败。我不知道是不是我们都这样觉得，但至少我一直都有这样的感觉。“Be strong and courageous” 我觉得神好像跟我说：“Come on, you can do it. ” 神早早就知道我会这样没用，就把那个verse重复几次，叫我一定要坚持下去。

Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. (Joshua 1:9)

逃避不是解决问题的方法，勇敢的面对才是解决问题的第一步。神会跟我们在一起面对问题。

“Be strong and courageous”

-Ljuan-

The first ever entry!

Wahaha! It seems like I have to start posting something here. If not it is a bit no point of having this blog..

Wells, it is supposed to exist for people to write down some random thoughts or some memories of life to share with the rest of the people!

Haha, so please support support this blog oo! Especially the Year One's! For this is created for your request! =) If not slowly it may become my personal blog, oops! Haha!

Today was the first day of weekly morning and evening prayer meeting. And it was good! Haha.. To me, I feel that in this fast-paced country, where time is limited and results matter, some of us tend to compromise time for devotion/prayer for our studies/work. So, prayer meeting is good to bring us back to the habit of spending more time with God. =)

It has been quite some time since the last prayer meeting, heh. While I was starting to pray today, I still felt like sleeping actually, haha.. Yet, God is good! I didn't sleep! Haha.. And I had this thought in my mind:

"A walk with God is with certainty."

Wow. This spoke a lot to me. For there are times I am in confusion. I am confused about many things in life. I couldn't find an answer. There are times, I am in dilemma too. Don't know which direction to go to; don't know what decision to make.

But, a walk with God is a walk with certainty.

Malachi 3:6 "For I am the Lord, I do not change;...."
Hebrew 13:8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.

There are times that we feel lost. Sometimes we turn here, turn there before we turn to God. But God is there; He is always there. Jesus is there. Holy Spirit is there. This is for sure. And how about God's promises? They are for sure too. God has had a plan. God has already known what do we need the most. God knows His timing well.

But I ask myself, then why there are certain things I hope to obtain yet I don't? But, a walk with God is a walk with certainty. Even though I don't have it now, it doesn't mean I won't get it in the future. Or what I want to get may not be so important now anyways. Maybe I will know how to appreciate more when I get it in the future. These could be the reasonings to psycho myself. So fundamentally the question should be, do I want to trust God?

Faith is something so interesting. We trust in the things that we do not see. Yet it is difficult to have faith sometimes for we are not convinced for the things unseen. But in order to make a "mountain" move, we gotta have faith! So maybe a walk with certainty is not only to know that God is always there or God will provide, but we walk our Christians journeys with the confidence that God is always there for us!

Saying is always easier than having it done. Scale it down to our daily life; should we spend time for God? Should we learn more about bible? Should we go for prayer meetings? Should we go for church services? Should we go for cell group meetings? Should we go for fellowships?

I guess all of these questions we should answer with certainty too! We should spend time for God, to learn more about bible, pray, fellowship, go for cell group meetings and church services! But there are times we think, then how about my studies, how about this and how about that? Many distractions are around to pull us away from Him.

But, a walk with God is a walk with an attitude of a certainty.

With this thought, I myself had a few struggles, for I know I haven't come to the stage where I really walk with certainty all the time with God. And I wanna thank God for just embracing me. I still have many questions unanswered. But I know, deep in my heart, God will tell me the answers one day. I just need to follow His flow.

What a ramble of thoughts! Lastly I wanna thank God for my gathering with AC Malaysian Scholars yesterday! It was fun interacting with them! Miss them lots! And miss the time when we had fun together! =)

Ciaoz for studies~~~~~